An Unrequited Love By Angela Otey

Thinking back on all that i've been through and when it felt my tears would drown me, you were there to pull me through. I was sitting in the dark with the lights dimmed so low and there you were.,coming out of the shadows to be my guiding light. You held my hand,kissed my cheek and scared my demons away. My own personal lighthouse whenever i felt lost,and how i felt lost oh so often you never hestitated to be by my side. I should have seen it though,i shouldve known you were falling in love.I didnt want to,i was set and secure on being naive.,knowing deep down i didnt feel the same way but i didnt wanna lose you.How could i reveal i didnt love you in the same way you love me without fear of you leaving....And you did.,quite a few times.But your love for our friendship kept pulling you back.And in time i began having feelings for you but not enough to see it through...You rescued me in my darkest of times and i will never forget you for that.,for that


reason alone i hold you in the highest of regards.But please dont hate me.,my heart will never be with you,our lips will never meet and our bodies will never dance.To say that i have been broken would be an echo of the reasons i gave you before and now that my heart is healed.,i dare not lie to you anymore.Ive tried to explain in the best way possible.,what we have is far better than any relationship between us could be...but I see...I see the longing in your eyes when we are close.,the fire burning when you sense another female getting my attention..so what do i do?Do i let you go..denounce the friendship altogether?Sitting you down only works for short periods at a time..Im writing this knowing you can and will never read it.,but its theraputic to me...so i ask myself...what do i do?