Life By Jessenia Rivera

Pride misleads you &&; guides you thru strides, Being Stubborn keeps you under from time. Love strengthens your heart but kills your soul. Loyalty separates the real from the fake. Trust keeps it going, Honor makes its presence.The Past always comes back for seconds. Life teaches it's lessons, Decisions puts you in right &&; wrong direction. Mistakes knock you  down and Karma always comes back around Thru the cycle of life you learn to never Regret always take bets, never turn your back, nver give up. Never fix your lips to say "you can't". No person roams without a destiny. For what's meant to be will be and if my dreams come true than write them down in history. We all have history, simply its what you make it. You want it, you get it, dream it, you live it. Time its always tickin, clickin reminding you that it shouldnt be wasted. Lets face it, everybody wants to make it but let me be clear If i get it, i'll take it, break it, never misplace it !

** Jessenia Rivera**

An Unrequited Love By Angela Otey

Thinking back on all that i've been through and when it felt my tears would drown me, you were there to pull me through. I was sitting in the dark with the lights dimmed so low and there you were.,coming out of the shadows to be my guiding light. You held my hand,kissed my cheek and scared my demons away. My own personal lighthouse whenever i felt lost,and how i felt lost oh so often you never hestitated to be by my side. I should have seen it though,i shouldve known you were falling in love.I didnt want to,i was set and secure on being naive.,knowing deep down i didnt feel the same way but i didnt wanna lose you.How could i reveal i didnt love you in the same way you love me without fear of you leaving....And you did.,quite a few times.But your love for our friendship kept pulling you back.And in time i began having feelings for you but not enough to see it through...You rescued me in my darkest of times and i will never forget you for that.,for that


reason alone i hold you in the highest of regards.But please dont hate me.,my heart will never be with you,our lips will never meet and our bodies will never dance.To say that i have been broken would be an echo of the reasons i gave you before and now that my heart is healed.,i dare not lie to you anymore.Ive tried to explain in the best way possible.,what we have is far better than any relationship between us could be...but I see...I see the longing in your eyes when we are close.,the fire burning when you sense another female getting my attention..so what do i do?Do i let you go..denounce the friendship altogether?Sitting you down only works for short periods at a time..Im writing this knowing you can and will never read it.,but its theraputic to me...so i ask myself...what do i do?

Breaking Silence By Angela Otey

As the days stretched on to months the hole in my soul almost seemed closed. My mornings were a little livelier and my nights didn’t seem so cold. But still in the back of my mind I had one constant enemy...time. Time was not in my favor, feeling like a slave to the clock with every single tic toc. When would we cross paths again? I often asked myself that very question over and over again. Would you remember us? I do. The flames of the sun compared not to the flames burning in my chest off mere memories of us. As time rolled on, I regained my strength until that one day. That day you called out the blue and my world shook to its core, as I’m sure you already knew. There it was the voice I so longed to hear, talking back to me bypassing my ears, streaming all the way down to my very insides. Like a love sung slide only you were permitted to ride. It was good, it was great. And then here it comes... the BOMB. Why is there always a Bomb on something

you’ve waited for, for so long? You told me you had moved on and that love was no longer our song. I knew that very moment I didn’t belong, friendship is what you sought and almost what I gave until I was reminded of the hallow cave where my heart should have been. I played it cool and seemed nonchalant although everything from my head to my heart was being ripped apart. A crooked smile and awkward laugh I gave you my blessing’s and very much meant it when I said I hope it lasts.

Lost Love

Thoughts of happiness and joy
Memories and moments forever in our hearts
The simple things that bring about the smiles, the hugs that meant more when i pulled you close, the soft kisses and gentle touches you adore. How you always want more and more
The Good and the bad, the proud and the sad, the troubles the mistakes the love and the hate.
The sunshine after the rain, the cold breeze after the pain.
The mistrust and betrayal that leave us frail. The tears of a tiger that help us prevail.
Forgiveness and strength that we keep in our hearts.
The moment we lost our way, the time we thought it could work. The final goodbyes the bitterness we've been taught.
The feeling of not being able to let go, the feeling of knowing its the only thing that can work.
The Hope when we part ways that one day we can return to us.
The months that go by without a call, without your voice, the times of loneliness and how we begin to hate ourselves.
The new loves that find their way in, yet cant compare to what has been shared.
Old love overpowers the New, the standards have been set and some boundaries cannot be crossed.
The feelings that never go away, the heart we can't get back.
The path we take the choices we make the actions we presume and the thoughts we create, hoping that one day it will be fate.
The feelings we assume are all part of this cycle of love's diguise!!!

Jessenia.Rivera

Mista Encore

Shoutouts To Mista Encore, who also has a hot new song called My All. Show your support and love for they boy, it's a great concept for a song. If you like the song you can find him on facebook as well as on Twitter. You can also look up his videos on youtube !

It's Never That Hard !

As I have come to find out, many of us are searching and searching for the one moment to let ourselves be free. I say free in simpler terms, whether it be free from a relationship or free from life restrictions you have been experiencing. We fail to realize that as individuals we rarely see the bigger picture. Most of us live for the moment, and disregard the consequences of whats to come there after choices and decisions have been made. Consequences are not negative experiences they are positive lessons. Without consequences we never the case. Believe in yourself first, and others will follow !would not know how to learn from our mistakes. And who is to say that what we are doing or what we experience are truly mistakes. The problem with some of us is that we focus to much on the negative aspects of life, indeed many of us have struggles and problems. The question is not whether life is hard, the question is what we can make out of the experiences that we encounter daily. I know personally that to some of us things have not come easy, and maybe some of us have even been pushed back by others. In response to those obstacles we must of course show that failure is never an option rather an illusion that does not exist. Ambition is what some strive on and with even the littlest can render a long way. Instead of thinking that you cannot do something, think that you can do whatever as long as you work hard and as long as you never give up. I write about this aspect of life because I have seen many family/friends just give up on their dreams, talent and skill do not matter if you do not execute what you are destined to do. Support comes along away, and if you feel alone that is


Written by Jessenia Rivera

Kenneth Proph Bernard : Representing Fam Music !!

First and foremost shoutout to Proph && Lottazay on the release of their double albums The Fascination and Elevator Life. Even after the ablums Prop is comes with another new track called Flyness Ft Dane. You can check it out at the link below and download it !! Show your support for Prop && Fam Music , keep doing it !!

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Let's Not Blame Anyone for this

Me and you - we are two worlds apart - not literally but gradually we've drifted away
To different places your face is not composed of the same features that i remember loving
When your hands squeeze my shoulders I don't want to be smoldered in your fire
Because that flame that use to burn doesn't rise as high and my heart doesn't blaze
How it did those first days we were in love
We were in love once upon a time but I cannot find the reason why i use past tense words
When I'm refering to us - When I refer to us, my tummy butterflies don't flutter
And make me stutter over words I've been speaking since I was one
We were one person - I remember yearning for you the moment you were out of my sight
I remember crying for you at night because I wished you were there beside me
You are still beside me but I don't sense your presence so I look for your shadow
I admire how your shadow still follows you after all these years
After all these years I've lost interest in your steps - I can't guess what you're thinking
Nor do I care, nor do I ask because it should be natural
It use to be natural for me to latch onto your words and heed your warnings
Now I walk into traffic without looking both ways and I scream in libraries
Because I'm attempting to make sense of the world without you
The world without you is awry if we don't exist
When we go to bed I feel alone - I feel your mind roaming and I'm zoning out of your orbit
Into fairytale land where happy endings are always possible
I use to think it wasn't just possible, it was preordained for us to be characters in a Disney
Movie - Everyone wished they had what we shared
If I still cared as much as I use to, then I might have cried when I heard your heart breaking
I may not have walked away from attempting to make us work but I am
I am going to be cliche and say, "Its not you, its me"
I think this would be easier if there was someone to blame but in the same the game must end
Regardless of how we play our cards, this hand wasn't dealt in our favor
So do me a favor and please stop trying to run from the truth
No one is immune to communication so stop contemplating your escape from an inevitable
Discussion on how our empire is meeting its extinction
You can't make the distinction between broken and functional but thats typical for you
Its typical that you would overlook ominous clouds and leave your car windows down anyway
I guess it makes sense that you haven't notice we're not in the same boat
How did you not see me float down stream and our dreams wither in my motor blades?
This convinces me you have selective eyesight but that's alright
Because at the end of the night you'll close your eyes and dream up a new future that does not include me

Written By : Reesi Cups

Steady Beat By Ali T. Muhammad

The eternal force to never lie down and fight for what you believe in, is not in every person; So is it an innate or eternal push to take back what’s quote on quote “yours”? When is it the correct time to pounce for love or lunge and grasp onto what feels so right and pure; twice a day?

All I know is that uncertain force that drives me to reconnect with the adapter who plugged me in reality is going at full throttle! I will not allow my passion and heart to be taken by anyone. My pride won’t allow it. I won’t allow it.

That does not mean her feelings are the same and that alone pushes me more. The harder push of a love lost child plucking the red flowers in the garden of white roses; the same as hopelessly romantic children culling the pedals off of violets while telling the wind, as she blows by, “He loves me, He loves me not.” Fore she may love me less but could she ever love me not?

I’m heading into a tunnel; its dark unknown and just plain nerve wracking yet the wait and desire to know how she really feels differentiates this from that love of a love lost child to a man; still a whimsical romantic man on a mission impossible, but if her visions improbable then the trip back home will be grayer than most even though the more I know the less I feel knowledgeable.

Knowledge is power and after my pain, time will shine on my heart and I. Instead of withering up it would steadily beat. The fast pounding, beat by beat, the blood flow that gives me heat is steered, actually driven by the love I have for her. If her love stops my heart won’t; but it will steadily beat and until I know my heart isn’t slow; retarded from love lost or the pace and speed rushing for love’s cost but steadily beating and yearning to know.

If you want to know the slow burning sensation of an unconscious undeclared future this is how the story goes: Have the one you love most; more than you could ever think you could love someone else. Stop, pause, and rewind. Fuck hindsight; will you fight to keep that crank in your heart or lay down in a defeatist fetal position the slow burn making you sick as if you were addicted to something worse than heroin. Suicide will never be the ending for this optimistic Romeo; fore I’d rather bring back the love of my life then watch her at the altar and ruin my life allowing her without objection to become another males wife…

No matter how it plays out that’s the bottom line. Even when I’m on my back I’m never backing down unless it’s in the gaze of those beautiful brown eyes in the day or when they’re blue during the twilight times; that make the cause, the reason for my hearts steady beat.

Gone

It Was ME it was I, Who sat there when you Cried.
When the rest of the World said Goodbye. I held you tight, pulled you close, let you know that thru whatever it would get better.
But now you settled, for less, cuz no disrespect I was the best.
Shits gettin deeper, burning thru the heart.
Let's go to the start where it began, when you ran and I chased and I chased and you ran.
Damn, now i'm feeling it. Now it hurts, when the one you love is blinded by a voice that tells her she has no choice.
By a friend or an enemy she held close.
But Friends are enemies that hide in shadows like ghost.
If you can't see it than i'm suppose to be out but can't figure out why I can't but won't move on or will but won't or can't but should.
Could it all come together, I'm tired of this weather, whether or not we together I know life gets better.
You left cold but i got a sweater, jay come on get it together, pluck it away like a feather.
Gone with the wind, where my thoughts can wander and I sit and ponder.
Wonders arise from pain and in this life I'm out to gain.
So when i blow up and enjoy the fame, don't forget to remember my name !!


JESSENIA RIVERA